friends

lovers they come and they go
friends they come and they never let go
friends are there when you need them the most


friends
whenever
you
need them

they
are
there
for
you

whenever
you
need
them

you
can
talk
to
them

friend
they
share
their
most
personal
stories

just
to
cheer
you
up

and
to
make
you
feel
you
aren't
the
only
one

friends
we need them
friends
i love them

not going back

The burden was so heavy
It almost broke my back
Now I know for sure
I'm never going back

into that place
into that state of mind
now i know what i'm looking for
and what i'm gonna find

The lies I kept on telling them
I couldn't stand them anymore
The false truths I kept on selling them
Couldn't handle them no more

So I'm never going back..

into that place
into that state of mind
now I know what I'm looking for
and what I'm going to find

Sweet dreams in my imaginary world
sweet words coming out of the mouth of my girl
sweet days go by like a train
sweet ways and so much love to gain

No I'm not going

back into that place
into that state of mind
now I know what I've been looking for
and what I have found

love love love love

(t)reason

I know I have to move on
But that's easier said than done
I know I have to find another girl
Someone who's also bright and shiny like a pearl

I believe in fate
we weren't meant to be
together we would haven been totally wrong
moving on is the key

and if we were meant to be
sooner or later you will come
and we will live happily together ever after
and the moarning will be done

But that doesn't mean
it doesn't hurt
it's just life
i need to lift my head from the dirt

I wonder why life is so mean
I wonder why life's so rough
But the lesson I've learned
is that a woman needs to be tough

and learn

there's a lesson in everything
nothing happens without a reason
eventhough you might think
the reason is treason

Gone

I want your love to be all mine
I want to hear you say with me you're just fine
I want me to be your only one
But no..you're gone

I believed it could be true
But yet I always knew
Since you gave me that clue
But the things you made me do
Made me believe it could be true

I heard you say you were in love
I thought an angel had come down from above
But then you said with a girl named H
And again I felt the bars of the cage
surrounding me

I want your love to be all mine
I want to hear you say with me you're just fine
I want me to be your only one
But no..you're gone

You were the first and only one for me
You knew me better than my own family
But then why couldn't you see
I just wanted you to be with me

I want your love to be all mine
I want to hear you say with me you're just fine
I want me to be your only one
But no..you're gone

I want your love to be all mine
I want to hear you say with me you're just fine
I want me to be your only one
But no..you're gone

Why
Why does life play this trick on me
I don't want to feel like just another brick in the wall you see
Why didn't I tell you before it was too late
Why didn't we even get the chance to go out on a date
Why weren't we meant to be
Why won't you answer me

I want your love to be all mine
I want to hear you say with me you're just fine
I want me to be your only one
But no ..honey you're gone

the Final Decision.

You didn't know

I still loved you

after i'd dumped you

in a way

i wouldn't do to anyone

ever again


but i did

i still got this warm feeling inside

when i thought of the few moments

you had to spend with me

even though love had gotten all rotten

and you treated me like shit


but i did

i thought you could change

especially after that conversation we had

you actually had time for me

more than you had when we had been together

i was a madly-in-love teenager again

just because of those casual comments you made

i thought you had changed


but now the final decision has been made

you're a nice guy but "we" is dead and won't arrise from death ever again

i won't ever go back to you

all the time i've known my friends were right

you didn't deserve me

but still i hoped still i thought some time you would change

but no, if you can change, someone else can experience that

it just won't be me.

Hope.

Hope.
A necessity.
There's no life without hope.
Hope for love.
Hope for better.
Hope for a new start.

Hope.
When you don't hope
you're lost.
Lost in life
Lost in everything.
In order to enjoy our life,
our predestined time on Earth
we must hope

Hope keeps us going
We get through dark times
because we hope
because we hope for better
and believe it's possible

Hope.
It's there. Always.
When we're living our lives to the max
when we believe we are completely happy
We hope.
Hope things won't change.

But the only thing that stays the same is change.
Everything in life changes.
And we know that.
But still we hope
in vain, but we hope we're wrong

Hope.
With no hope
there's no life
When you don't hope
you're lost.

What's love?

This is something I wrote approx 8 months a go, not really up to date and certainly not how i feel at the moment but i just wanted to share it:

What's love?
Four letters one syllable
How can such a short word
Describe such an immense feeling?
It contains what is so much better described
By actions instead of words
A sweet little gift a tender kiss

But then I wonder
What is love?
What is love really?
What's a definition of love, affection?
Being there for someone?
Caring for that other one?
To trust, to count on someone?

Love, four letters one syllable
A word that brings along so much joy
But at the same time such a sadness
How can such a word
contain two total opposite feelings?

L O V E, love, what's love?
I think I know.
I think it's you.

Peace of mind.

Dear mama,

Everything is washed in black
Tattooed every shade of grey
I do not know what to do
There's a huge lack of words to say

I should stand still in this world
Stop running away
Carry the weight of my world on my shoulder
And live day by day

Instead I keep on running
Every single word I utter is a lie
I have no peace no more
This is how I live as sweet days go by

The only thing I fear is total freedom
and maybe change of pace
Change of setting change of life
I fear the look at your face

I fear the look in your eyes
When I come to peace with the thruth of my heart
When I settle down and
make a new start

I don't believe this journey was meant for nothing
It must be made to feel the power of two being one
And just when I start to realize that
The journey will be done

The innocence of a child I can see in your eyes..

The innocence of a child

I can see in your eyes

Feel in your touch

Taste in your lies

I want to stay in this moment with you

Doesn't matter where we go

or what we do

All I want to do is stay with you

To whom this is addressed, you ask? To be honest, I don't know. I really don't know. To those chicks I saw today in Amsterdam while I was staring at them thinking *hottt!!* and my mum asking "what are you staring at?" and I quickly answered "oh, nothing" hoping she wouldn't suspect anything? To my ex, who I secretly still like a lot even though he treated me like shit?
I don't know. I simply don't know.
Boy, I feel lonely.

As Melissa used to say it:

In front of total strangers won't you kiss me
Flowers for no reasons but you miss me
Ohohhh, I want to be in love...