I should have known better.

We broke up January 4th 2011
I moved out the 8th
The light was already shining so bright
But I chose not to see it
Blinded as I was by my pain

Six weeks later anger replaced the pain
As I finally saw the light
in retrospective
Well, she shined it in my face really
Sharing her new love on FB
Not bothering to inform me until three days later
Her best friend
My friend
Ironic really, she was the one I turned to after the break up
She was the one I begged to talk to my ex on my behalf
While she was already screwing her behind my back

The only vow we ever made was to be honest with each other
No matter how much it would hurt
I asked her over and over again
"Is there something else? Is there someone else?"
Constant denial
She was nothing like the person I fell in love with before
And, how much I tried, I just could not comprehend
How could this be the person I wanted to marry, have kids with, grow old with?
Not even interested in fighting for our relationship
She just said it was over, nothing could change her mind
And the next day, she was feeling "fine" while I felt like my heart had been ripped out
Just because someone else was waiting for her
Her best friend
Well, good luck together, I guess.

I thought I was over her
As I landed in bed with a good looking colleague
Again and again
She's even my gf now since a week or 5
But she can't make me feel the things my honey made me feel
I do not love her like I loved my ex

I was quite shocked
When I found out yesterday

That I'm still in love with my ex