Nuthin' better is waiting 'round my corner

I really believed
wholeheartedly
that something better
would be waiting
'round the corner
waiting for me
to come and get it.

believing this
was a kind of religion for me
the only thing i could
hold on to
in dark times
the only sparkling star
in my dark sky.

but i'm not sure
if i can keep my faith
i've been disappointed
time and time again.

oh there was something better
waiting 'round the corner
as sound as i found it
hiding in the dark
i grabbed this opportunity
with both hands
not wanting to let it fly away
but yet i was disappointed.
again.

it's hard to believe
something better's waiting for me
when you can't believe
there actually exist
something better
than
the life
i had imagined
would be mine
and mine alone.

Hiding place

On first sight
everything looks calm
you're happy to have found us
we don't mind having you around
at least most of us don't.

i thought you were happy now
finally
but my eyes were too blind to see-
or you're just a damn good actor-
that you're not happy
you're unhappy
afraid the same things might
happen to you
again.

I read your secret diary
Had a chance to look
inside your soul
You are afraid to get hurt again
you don't trust us enough
but why?
pretend
and no doubt you get hurt again.

Be who you are
speak the truth
Let us explain
and take responsibility
for our actions
Looking away
pretending you don't see it
doesn't work.

It's scary I know
but as time goes by
even the strongest wall
will collapse.

The Decision.

On one hand
I feel terrible
Talking you into something
that's not of my business
it's wordly known
a daughter should keep out of
her mother's businesses
Yet
all i want to do
is bring you the happiness
you deserve
but have walked around
in a big circle
for what looks like
twenty years of your life
Your life is so not
as life was supposed to be
i know that
you know that
i want to do something about it
i want to fight for it
you don't
you know it's not perfect
but then again
life is not perfect
you say
you have to make sacrifices
you say
if i could
i would do it for you
i tend to forget
that you have to make the decision
i want it so badly
but it's your life.
so please
make the decision
you,
deep in your heart,
think is the best for you.

Similarity

You have gone
through this
metamorphosis
or maybe it's just
your real side
that you've been hiding
for so long
shining through
cuz on one hand
you despise her so much
for being that certain way
while on the other hand
you are just like her
quite ironic
how you are
exact the same way
as the person
whose characteristics
you despise so much.

Distance.

As I stepped
into the bus
as the bus driver
put the engine on
the wheels of the bus
went round
something inside
was being teared apart
with the thought
of you and me
growing apart
moving
further and further
away from each other
the aching became
more and more
unbearable

i couldn't think of anything else
than the growing distance
between you and me
the gap
I couldn't help
enjoying my time
but wanting to go back so badly
because i couldn't stand the
distance
any longer.

it was a strange feeling when
this morning
on one hand
my heart was aching
for leaving my new made friends behind
but on the other hand
it was jumping up and down
knowing i would come home
to you
my love.

Thank you

Thank you
for what you mean to me
Thank you
for being the way you are
Thank you
for being strong
Thank you
for speaking true
Thank you
for being a rolemodel
Thank you
for changing my life
Thank you
for awakening me
Thank you
for opening my eyes
When I was wandering in the dark
my eyes closed
Bumping into every possible wall
surrounding me.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.......