All I want is peace of mind..

For so long I've been looking for a place where I can be me without being ashamed of it. I think I've found it.

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Location: Zeist, Utrecht, Netherlands

I'm 23 years old, Dutch. I'm madly in love. I'm a thinker. I'm spiritual. I'm social, funny and a friend.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Some relationship shit I need to get off my chest

First of all I must say I'm incredibly happy with my relationship. I have the most amazing, beautiful, loving, caring, funny and sweet girlfriend I could possibly wish for. The only thing I can't stand is that every initiative has to come from her side. Whenever I take initiative she waves it away with "oh honey" and a sigh. If it was just now and then I could deal with that. Of course. But everytime I get the feeling that my initiatives are not appreciated. And when I back off and pout, or say that it's fine, she starts feeling guilty and I still get my way, but I don't want it that way. I want it to be spontaneous; from both sides. And I can understand that in this period of her life she has to have control and do what she wants, but I wish there was a way in the middle. I wish it was exciting again. Like it used to be.