My spiritual coming home.
It is probably my adolescent naivety, but I just can't imagine how people can just continue their lives like nothing happened after having been to a concert. I saw Sarah Bettens for the fourth time last Tuesday and I'm still completely overwhelmed. All I want to do right now is to think, talk and write about that show. I want to continue living in that moment. It feels like I'm living on a cloud right now and I have no intention to put my feet back on the ground. And when I get pulled off my cloud, by family, work or school it hurts like a motherfucker.
I want to play that show in my head again and again and again and relive every single moment of it. I want to relive that 1.5 hour of magic and rock 'n roll.
Just like the other three times, standing there in the audience, front row, singing (well, that's too much credit. i didn't sound that good) along made me feel like i was taken up in that moment and like everything came together. This is who I am and everything's exactly like it's supposed to be. I'm whole and I have reached my purpose in life. That's exactly how I felt last Tuesday. I had been counting the days for over a month, craving for that terribly addicting feeling. Man, it feels good.
I can watch that woman play for hours and hours in a row. She represents my world to me. Watching Sarah play makes my puzzle whole. All pieces come together and the picture they form is oh so clear. It's me.
Watching Sarah also makes some things painfully clear. But painful in a good way though. It's like she reminds me of my personal values and asks me not to give them up, how hard this might be some times.
And even though we're in completely different life stages, I can relate to her songs so well. Like the first time I heard Pave the Way I was shocked. I couldn't move, I couldn't think, all I could do was cry until I had run out of tears. The song cut right through my skin into my heart. It felt like she had taken a look inside of me and wrote a song about what she found in there. That's how I felt when I heard Pave the Way. I had been dying for her to play that song live last time I saw her, but back then she didn't. So you can imagine I was floating in space when she did play it last Tuesday.
As I said, I'm still not back with my feet on the ground and I don't want that either! This state I'm in feels like the highest possible state a human soul can reach and I love it. Nothing matters; I'm there, up there.
I want to play that show in my head again and again and again and relive every single moment of it. I want to relive that 1.5 hour of magic and rock 'n roll.
Just like the other three times, standing there in the audience, front row, singing (well, that's too much credit. i didn't sound that good) along made me feel like i was taken up in that moment and like everything came together. This is who I am and everything's exactly like it's supposed to be. I'm whole and I have reached my purpose in life. That's exactly how I felt last Tuesday. I had been counting the days for over a month, craving for that terribly addicting feeling. Man, it feels good.
I can watch that woman play for hours and hours in a row. She represents my world to me. Watching Sarah play makes my puzzle whole. All pieces come together and the picture they form is oh so clear. It's me.
Watching Sarah also makes some things painfully clear. But painful in a good way though. It's like she reminds me of my personal values and asks me not to give them up, how hard this might be some times.
And even though we're in completely different life stages, I can relate to her songs so well. Like the first time I heard Pave the Way I was shocked. I couldn't move, I couldn't think, all I could do was cry until I had run out of tears. The song cut right through my skin into my heart. It felt like she had taken a look inside of me and wrote a song about what she found in there. That's how I felt when I heard Pave the Way. I had been dying for her to play that song live last time I saw her, but back then she didn't. So you can imagine I was floating in space when she did play it last Tuesday.
As I said, I'm still not back with my feet on the ground and I don't want that either! This state I'm in feels like the highest possible state a human soul can reach and I love it. Nothing matters; I'm there, up there.
posted by peaceofmind | 6:33 AM
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