Craaaaaaaaaazy me

For some reason, every time I think of coming out to certain people I get these strange visions of their reactions. You'll probably start laughing now, and I won't blame you, but take for example the reaction of my volleyball team. What will they think when I come out to them? Will they wonder if I hit on them, every time we're taking a shower after a match? Yeah, crazy thought, start laughing, but I wouldn't blame them for that reaction (as I have a very hot team lol). It would make me feel very uncomfortable though. They will never ask that out loud and that's perhaps even the most uncomfortable thing about it: seeing in people's eyes what they think (or thinking you know what other people think)without them saying aloud what they think or wonder.
I HATE THAT!
And that's why I'm scared of coing out to them! I think I know them so well, that I can predict their reactions and because of that I don't want to come out to them! That's crazy, right?!I am crazy, right?



Yep. I am. I know now for sure after having reread this blog. It sucks. I suck. Sometimes.