You is all you have.

It feels like there's
a knot in my soul
I don't know who I am
and who my friends are
anymore.
I keep continuing disliking
the people I've considered
being my best friends
over the past couple of years.
I feel bad for feeling that way.
But I don't like his childishness
I don't like here attitude
I don't like their likes
I keep getting annoyed by them.

No I'm not going on vacation to Bulgary
like the rest of them
How much I'd like to go
I know it's not good for me.
Hey, I know myself.
We are different
we'll all want to do different things
and I'm gonna give in
since you lot aren't going to
and I don't want a fight.
So I'll give in
make sure you lot
have a good time
ignoring myself
and feel like the smallest
and most unhappy fuck on this planet.

I'm not going through with that no more.
For once, I'll choose for me.
Sure you can call me egocentric
and I guess I am
But I'm gonna choose for myself
make sure I am gonna have a good time.
It's time to realise
my own happiness is equally important.

I deserve to be happy.