Joy and Happiness

The last couple of weeks
I more and more realised
who I am
and I started being proud of it
Not afraid to show the sides
my so called friends ridicule
I have other friends
real friends
who appreciate the
total package.
yup
i'm being harsh
but i've let people talk me down
for way too long now
and it made me
the dark, teary eyed
and insecure person
i am today.
and i don't like it.
gotta do something.
gotta remove all the toxins from life
but since i'm not in a position yet to do that,
i'll just distance myself from all the toxins.

Apologies
I appreciate them
but they don't really change my opinion.
You're a sweetheart,
you really are.
i've learned from you.
you made me feel loved.
i remember so well.

2002
you moved to the other side of the world.
2004
there you were, standing in front of my door.
i couldn't believe my eyes.
There you were,
continuing our old tradition.
You've probably never realized it,
but it made me feel loved
and it brings a smile on my face
just thinking about it again.
You learned me lessons about life
I gladly learned.
Yet maybe that chapter should be closed now.
maybe you're just not meant to be in my life anymore.
And that's okay.
I love you
as a friend from the past.
I will remember you
and think of you with a smile on my face.


I finally know I'm where I'm supposed to be.
Finally i'm allowing Life to bring me

Joy and Happiness