A fucked up head that is..

Maybe I should seek a therapist. There just doesn't seem to come an end to all the shit in my head. You know, the thing I just most want now is to just crash. Crash down; lay in bed all day, listen to my music, watch a movie, just no obligations. And that, for a month or two. Alas, that's not happening. No I have to go to school and homework to make, I have my work, I have volleyball and coaching and preparing matches and playing some too to do. Oh, and I have my personal life as well, or the little that's left of it anyway. I turn my back to the people who care; I don't want to go out, I don't want to go for lunch, I don't want to watch a movie; I'm afraid of having to live up to expectations. I'm afraid to disappoint people when they find out I am not the person they want me to be. I turn my back on them as not to break their expectations. I just want to be alone and lay in bed all day. I don't want to go to work; I don't want to go to school, I don't want to go to the gym, I don't want to get out of bed..

Maybe I should seek a therapist.