Road to happiness

I have so many things left to do
It only becomes clearer
when reading about someone else's happiness
brings tears to my eyes

it will be a long road
to where i'm supposed to be in my life
but i will get there
some day.

I know I'm stuck in the dark and
cold
and that I should go where it's warm
and shiny
but right now I can't
as I'm stuck here in the middle
just my pen and paper
and myself to depend on

I know I can make the journey
I know I will make the journey
It's just not meant to be made just now.
That's difficult for me
But I have learned I will have to learn the lesson of this all
before I will be able to move on
find myself
walk the path of my truth
instead of someone elses.

I know someday
the path of pebbles I have to walk on barefooted
will turn into a red carpet
on which I'll hop
with satin shoes
made just for me

And then I'll know I've made it
that I have found my road to happiness.
Right now,
first I have to find the power
to look further than my small western village
and open my eyes to find the path
MY path
my road to happiness.