Pride

I thought you had
long forgotten
I hoped you had
But you brought up
the conversation again
1,5 year after date.
you were the only person
i'd even speak to about it
in first place
and yet
i was afraid
to say it out loud
to speak the truth
and
reveal the real me

So I didn't say it
I said
"errm maybe
i dunno
could be"
I was surprised
by myself
Why couldn't I speak the truth
I, who'd always say
that's the most important factor
in life!
I disappointed myself
for didn't speaking the truth

But I know that
someday I will
Someday
I will be proud of myself.