Half friends

It happened more than once
That I thought I knew someone
but got slapped in the face
as it turned out that
I actually knew so little about this person

People I've got to know
throughout the years
I consider them my friends
-Good friends
not the ones
you just say 'hi' to every now and then
when you pass them while doing your shopping-
I still consider them my friends
I bless them and love having them around
But I found out
certain topics
are just not done to talk about
or they are, but just not
when they hit home too much.

I've come to peace with this
but still it feels like lying,
negative karma,
when I tell a half truth
for their own sake
as I know what their reaction will be
they'll deny it and explain how open minded they are
but I know that deep inside
they'll ask questions
start walking away from me-
maybe even unconsciously-
They can deny it
but I know this is the truth
their truth
they might not see it
and say I'm a liar
but I sense it
I feel it

I might even know them better
than they know themselves.