Vicious circle.

The questions keeps
repeating itself
Why?
Why you?
Why me?
Why are you doing
this
to me?

With one bite
you eat away
the little self confidence
I had left
and turn it into
zero confidence

I know
I'm not the me
you wanted me to be
but I've grown up now
you can't knead me
into the person
you want me to be

You want me to change
But I don't see why.
I'm not ashamed of myself
I'm proud of who I am
But you make me think
something is wrong
and that I should be
ashamed of me.

You have been in my shoes
You have been there
Maybe that's even the worst part
you know what it is
you know what it feels like
but still
you're afraid to change
you're afraid of what might come
so you just keep repeating
this vicious circle
no matter how much pain
it brings along.
Why does such a good friend
have to be
my worst enemy?