I'm proud of me.

The red carpet
was lying there
just for me it seemed.

The Christmas ball
was excellent.
Just a few friends
10 or so in total
all dressed up beautifully.
Only my second ever
wearing a dress.
I felt like a goddess.
I could already imagine
me
walking on that famous carpet
photographers all around me
yeah i have a big imagination.

but as the night went by
more and more wine we drunk
and the more serious our conversations got.

This was one of the few times
I was opening up to my friends
every single one of them
a mile stone.
I am learning you see?
It took my 16 years
to open up
to the people I love
But I did it.
I shared my inner feelings
Told them how I thought
about my situation
and my future plans.
To others
this may seem as nothing special
but to me
this was special
something
i won't regret
nor forget.



I'm proud of myself.