All I want is peace of mind..

For so long I've been looking for a place where I can be me without being ashamed of it. I think I've found it.

Name:
Location: Zeist, Utrecht, Netherlands

I'm 23 years old, Dutch. I'm madly in love. I'm a thinker. I'm spiritual. I'm social, funny and a friend.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

A complete stranger.

The first time I saw you
I swear to God
it was magic
Saw you a couple more times
More and more magic

I fell for you
the very first time I saw you
Didn't know you
Didn't even know your name
But there was something magic 'bout you
You drew my attention immediately

I got to learn your name
Bit by bit
I got to learn more about you

Yesterday I saw you again
After what seemed an eternity
Yesterday
the very first time you touched me
You didn't mean anything by it
It was just something casual
"Too bad you didn't succeed
next time better" it meant
But to me it meant so much more
than those casual words

I can still feel the touch
of your warm tender hands
touching mine
That already made my day
I never even thought of
you touching me
The two of us
sharing the same drink

I went home
said goodbye
wished you a nice weekend
you responded
"Thanks for helping us out
You have a great weekend too

Laura."

Dang
I had NEVER expected that.
You, who were so close
but yet so far away
knew my name!

I know it will probably
stay that way.
Yeah we'll have some
casual conversations
a few more times
and that will be it.

You'll go home
to your nice and warm place
to your loved one

I'll go home
to my little cold and black
attic room
to the persons
I'm supposed to love
But inside
it's just
me
alone.

I don't care right now.
At least you know something
about me.
You know my name.

At least
all the trying
was not in vain.
I'm not a complete stranger
to you anymore.