I can't.

I just cannot stand it anymore
Yuck
I know I keep
hammering on about it
But it just
doesn't seem to change
whatever i say or do

I want to shout
my lungs out
but I can't.
I want to run
Run far away from this
Leave everything
far behind
Run until
my legs can't carry
me no more
never look back.

It drives me crazy
I'd give everything
To change this piece of my life
No one seems to understand
no one seems to care
I've tried to find the lesson in all this
over and over again
I understand the lesson
I know in a coupla years
I will and can make a change

But now
I feel mentally abused
Someone's fucking up my mind
I want to be that change
in my life
I want to be it now.
I can't.