here i go

A year has passed since she last laughed
she's letting life run by
comforted in her quiet place
she grabs herself an alibi

i built a wall around myself
too high to look over
5 feet thick
impossible to break through
yet i'd like you to try

she only likes responsibility
when it turns out good
she hates when things go wrong
she barely can stay put

every time they'd shout
i'd turn on my magic machine
of imagination to cover up
the image that i'd see
in my head

she thinks she needs to
change her hair and change her way
before she can change herself

i don't want to disappoint the people investing in me
but i want them to see
the me they know doesn't make me happy

sure yeah she says
fuck no she means
drawing parallels
at the bottom of the ocean
uh huh she says
oh no she means
what is she thinking when
she points her gun


when the thing she's been longing for
for the past few years
is finally offered
she wants to grab it with both hands
but she's too afraid to go
i'm so afraid to go
but here i go