Too afraid to get hurt

If I look back
it's always been like this
tough on the outside
but broken from within
too scared to be hurt
so i just built a huge wall
around my heart
to protect it from all the pain
and shame that could ever
bring me down.
Throughout the years
that wall has grown bigger and bigger
no matter how much i lift my head
i can't see the end
-it doesn't have an end-
that big it is.

I'm so afraid to get hurt
So I just made sure
that it can't happen
but didn't I, at the same time,
also prevent myself
from being happy?
From loving
and being loved?

I think it's time
for me to break down that wall
it will take some time
since that wall is huge
it will be difficult
the bricks are hard
and it was carefully built
but I will get there

someday.