Just a lie

I'm still working
on finding out
what dreams mean
and what they
really are for.


Two nights before last
I had this crazy ass dream
It just seemed so real
When I woke up
for a moment I thought
it had really happened
and it felt really cool
until I realized
it had only been a dream.

Anyhoo

I was hanging out
with my teammates
having lotsa fun
then
one of my friends
my coach
says something about
him and his friend
(my other coach)
thinking that
I'm a lesbian.
I didn't confirm it
nor did I deny it
None of that
they wanted me to btw
It was just
them saying
what they thought.
No answers wanted
Just matter of factly
stating their thought.

There my dream ended
and I remember thinking
in my dream
"hm I should write a blog about this".
(lmao)
it felt strange
but yet very good
as this meant
(even though it was only in a dream)
that I was showing
some of my real me -even though it was subconscious-

it made me realize
my whole life
might as well be
much more than
Just a Lie.