All I want is peace of mind..

For so long I've been looking for a place where I can be me without being ashamed of it. I think I've found it.

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Location: Zeist, Utrecht, Netherlands

I'm 23 years old, Dutch. I'm madly in love. I'm a thinker. I'm spiritual. I'm social, funny and a friend.

Monday, October 10, 2005

Voices...shouting...momma....screaming

Shouting voices
Mother's screaming over the smallest things
Father's stupid actions are the main source
for her screamings

Daughter doesn't clean up her mess
and didn't tell she's going out
coming saturday
daughter know she did
mother may just have forgotten

next day everything's perfect again
nobody seems to remember the previous day
but i do
i remember
and it only strenghtens my feeling
of getting out of this place
out of this town
far away

it's driving me mad
those terrible situations
momma's screaming
i want to scream too
as i used to
but i became wiser

me always having a big mouth
towards mother
when momma was shouting at me
I'd shout at her
Telling her how wrong she was

now i am crying
when momma's shouting at me
quietly i try to convince her i'm right
reasonably
but that drives her even more mad
and i turn my back
and silently i cry

I just so need to get out of here
I hate being so limited
just because of my age
age ain't nothing but a number
i'm an old experienced soul
in a young teenage body