I'm a Dreamer

I found out
I have the gift
of closing myself off
from the world

the crowd may be
so big
buy I feel
so alone

Music in my ears
Music in my heart
Thinking about
everything that comes
to mind

My eyes see the crowd
But I don't see the crowd
The crowd doesn't seem to see me

I feel invisible at times
The first time I felt like that
I remember well
I got this strange feeling
in my stomache
I really believed I was invisible

I remember it so well
Halloween 2004
All dressed up
Cycling in the dark
to this Halloween party

I was wearing huge dark hippie glasses
It was difficult to see through them
It was difficuly for me to see others
So I believed it was difficult for others
to see me
Kind of the ostrich mentality
If I can't see you
You can't see me

I knew it couldn't be true
But still it felt so great
And I started to believe in higher powers
what if i indeed was invisible that moment?
what if others indeed couldn't see me?
I shook my head
Came back to reality
Took of my glasses

It happens more and more often now
I turn inside myself
Not hearing anything
but music and my own thoughts
While there's noise
everywhere around me

Sometimes I have to shake my head
and come back to reality

But most of the time
I love it
I cherish the gift.

I'm a dreamer.