Madly in love fuck up- yes i'm talking about myself

It's like she brings out the worst of me and the best of me both at the same time.
I've never felt this much pain and so in love before.
Why am I already crying over her while we're not even together yet?
I just want to lay me down next to her.
I want to wrap my arm around her.
I want her to kiss me.
I want to go to sleep peacefully with her next to me.
I want her arm around me and my head in her lap when I feel down.
I want to walk hand in hand with her.
I want to do the grocery shopping together with her.
I just want to be near her.
I want I want I want..
I'm in love
You know, she knows I have issues. More than once she told me that I could always talk to her. She's there for me. But how am I gonna tell her that she is the reason that I feel this way?? How am I gonna tell her that being so madly in love with her makes me feel like such a failure, a fuck up?? I know i probably should, but I'm sorry, I just can't.